I woke up this morning in a panic after a repeating dream. I’ve had variations of this dream probably 11 times over the past 2 months and it’s not fun AT ALL. I can’t specifically say what it is that I’m dreaming of (nightmaring of) but I know it’s my brains way of trying to work through some shiznits that have happened.
Each time I have this dream there’s always a change, and I gain more confidence, and more of a voice which is very interesting to think about after each morning of waking up after having said dreams. Almost like my brain is trying to give me something I didn’t have. Like it’s trying it’s hardest to fix my subconscious and make everything ok. The problem with last night’s dream is that it’s still in my head 5 hours after waking up.
I can’t seem to shake it today. I almost wish I could go to sleep right now so I could hopefully dream about something else so I can forget this crazy ass dream.
OY. So anxious. Also the nightmare last night happened in perfect chronological order, which I think has something to do with it being so imprinted in my brain right now. I think because it happened in a manner that could have taken place…my brain wants to process it like a real memory unlike dreams where things happen at random (i.e. I’ll be in one room doing homework then jump to me riding a bike somewhere)
Maybe typing all of this out will help me forget it and as the day progresses I can fill my brain with other thoughts. Anxious to see where the nightmare story will go next time I have it!
